Life update: I'm an EM resident now.

I'm eight months into intern year and that is crazy because it does not feel like that much time has passed since I started and graduated med school, honestly... Intern year is tough, challenging... rewarding, too.

I feel like every single moment of the many, many, many -- too many, so many -- hours that we're at the hospital we're learning, and that's beautiful, but also very exhausting.

I try to remind myself that, you know, you only train once, theoretically, so you've got to take advantage of this time.

And that's what I'm trying to do, but also trying to take my own advice of not putting life on hold just because you're doing something else that's really hard and sometimes consuming.

So really enjoying life and trying to, you know, not be defined by this experience, per se.

And happy to report that I'm doing okay.

It's been two-and-a-half years since we started filming the documentary, which is mind-blowing.

We filmed my third year of medical school, which is sort of like the intern year of medical school.

And I remember it... it was honestly a very -- it was a huge change of pace for me.

I'm typically not someone who records themselves or likes to take pictures or, you know, things like that.

So it was a very different way of expressing myself than I'm used to, and I'm honestly very glad for that chance.

Yeah, it was like a check point to check in with how I was doing when maybe I wouldn't have verbally said it in that same way otherwise.

Things definitely got serious and felt serious third year, but I think there were moments that kind of helped bring me back down to earth and remind me that, you know, there's a whole world out there that isn't this.

Like, there was this one scene that we were filming for the documentary where I was walking in and out of the ED on one of my shifts, and they wanted to get the perfect shot.

And I felt ridiculous because I had walked out of that door and back into that door like five times in a row.

And the security guard was like, at one point, like, looks me up and down and goes, "What, are you famous or something?"

And I just thought that was hilarious because he's absolutely right.

Like, what was I doing and what were we doing?

But... you know, it was funny and it was very grounding in the moment.

I think the further you get in this process, the more the wool is pulled back from over your eyes, so it's really important to remember those ideals you had early on and why you set forth on this path in the first place.

So, I'm glad the documentary helped me remember that.